Saturday, April 10, 2010

Being a mom can feel so complicated sometimes

The tides of people in my life having babies are swelling a little bit and so baby memories and baby thoughts are coming up. I went perusing my catalog of baby pictures and found these to share...


17 days old... so, so small!


four months old... tired daddy, tired baby


four months...


five months...



And then one day it dawns on you that she's not like that any more. It really does feel very sudden, almost shocking. You wonder how it happened. Hopefully it will not happen to you at a flea market in San Jose.


I told her I would not buy her this thing she is loving in the picture and she pouted at me for a while. But look at the joy in that smile! And the stupid thing was only a dollar. Somehow I think if I had bought it I would have that smile longer, or impossibly make the joy even stronger. But I know it's a lie.

She is a jewel.

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Edited to add :: Because it is time together that brings that joy, not having more toys. And there is nothing like turning over the dinosaur and realizing you know where the matching card is!